37 Weeks and counting!!!

So this week I am 37 weeks. Can you believe it. I have made it super far. This has been a rough pregnancy for me in many ways. I am so thankful that me and the baby are safe.

I'm definitely at the uncomfortable part of this pregnancy. I have been struggling to sleep these days. Especially since I have had a hard time breathing due to the flu. But I have to say my husband and families help has really made me feel better that everything is being taken care of. Thankfully my hubby and son have not caugh anything. I am so thankful that it hasn't effected anyone else in the family. (-:

So thankful!!!

I am just so thankful for the outpouring of love and kindness through this difficult week. This week has become a really rough ride for me and have been scrambling to have childcare for my little one all week

This flu has hit me really hard have not regained my strength yet. I have been relying on family and friends to help. I feel so blessed to have such a strong support system during this though time.

Super Scared

Ok so I had a scare last night with a high fever but maintained a 98 degree temperature but tonight it seems to have risen again. Please pray for me!!! I don't want to go to the hospital!!! Thanks So much!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reading a book about Birth and A quote that was well put for someone who had a C-Section!!!!!!!!!

The book I am reading is called Giving Birth How it Really Feels by Sheila Kitzinger. This is the quote that is well put.

"Very little seems to be written about the psychological effect Caesarean can have upon a woman-guilt, anxiety and failure. The experience shattered me and my confidence in myself as a woman and gae me a feeling of failure at not being able to perform the function for whichI, a woman, was intended- having a baby- and then having such trouble breastfeeding. It hurts terribly to read glowing articles in magazines about wonderful births. I realize that Caesarean sections are an emergency procedure, but I sometimes qonder if mine was really necessary."

Oh so true. Enough said!!!!!!

Sympathy!!!

Ok I get it. I am hormonal and I just gosh darn want some sort of sympathy. I was up all night with my munchkinman. And my hubby has been in a horrible mood. Change is not one of his favorite things so he isn't so nice these days to be around. I know it has to do with the job change and it will end soon. I just know it was really bad timing of everything.

One of my deepest frustrations right now is sympathy 5 weeks til my due date and all I want is for someone to understand. I scrubbed my bathroom floors the other day and I had terrible back pain. I explained to my hubby that I was in pain. He said he legs were killing him. My migraines have been bad lately and when I told hime I had a migraine all day he said he had a headache too. This morning I felt sick and my hubby exclaimed he wasn't feeling well either. Why do I even bother. Ugh!!!!

I feel like saying well I'm almost 9 months pregnant. Top that!!!!!! I guess I am just emotional and need sleep. Hopefully my kiddo will take a nap for me so I can get some rest. Ugh!!!!!!!!

If I haven't called its because I just don't want to talk right now. I'm grumpy. My son has been throwing tempertantrums left and right. Yesterday he threw himself on the floor and just cried for a long period of time. He just is so unreasonable these days. He is super testing my patience. Thankfully I am not giving in to his rantings. He need structure. He is testing me in every way. ugh!!!!!

An Old Camp Song!!!

So this morning my son slept in. I started singing when he woke up. Good Morning its God's Morning when the skies are sunny or grey. Good Morning its God's morning Hope you have a wonderful day.

Today in our household it was a sunny day. (-:

MOPS!!

So today at MOPS we had a women come in and speak about a large disappointment in her life. I think the gist of it all at the end was that in the ten years of over coming huge obstacles. She is still learning and dealing with the consequences but seeing God's sovreignty through all of what happened.

We all have challenges in our lives. We all go through something. Some people may even think that their hardships are more to bear than anothers. But as I have always remembered from way back. God does not give us something we cannot handle.

Who are we to judge eachother and what we have been given to go through. God is really our ultimate comforter and that is who we look to for our strength. We need Him to surround us through hard times. Because quite honestly when we look to others for comfort they fall short to what God can do in our lives.

I am so thankful I got to hear this woman's story this morning. It is scary how much our lives are put in someone elses hands even in a birthing situation. Ultimately we are in God's hands and that is what this speaker reminded us. God is in control. He knows the plan He has set forth for all of us. To me that is a great comfort.

Especially when I am looking foward to the birth of my next child. And what my expectations are for that situation. Somedays it seems more scary than others. But I have to trust in God that He will do what is right for me and for my baby.

We all have expectations but God ultimately is in control. As the speaker said I'm sure God laughs sometimes at the control freaks. Well said and well put. We all like to plan for the future but in the end we are not in control God is. We can only be blessed with what we have today.